sigh

i feel so nervous,, so worried, i hv finished 5 chapters, 12,000 words so far, but it's still too slow for me, far behind the schedule. The DEADLINE is 18/4, i count in my mind everyday, if i can finish one chapter each day, i can complete the whole work on time, luckily. If everything wouldn't go wrong, if i wouldn't get sick, if i could concentrate in front of the desk 8 hours a day, if i write as well as Haruki Murakami, if i don't need to work, if i still hv a year to go, if the world i'm living is just a dream, if everything can start again, back to the time i was in Taiwan, back to the time of SEM A when i didn't have any credits...

it's a regret that i can't buy Dung's new published, can't reach the goal i set, feel so sorry to myself.

there's a big problem i've been dealing with few weeks, i'm still working on the plot, mammy, mammy, mama mia,, help me please.